Today i went to sit for my driving test.. And I passed!! Unbelievable rite? Right till this moment I'm still can't imagine that I really can drive a car. And officially got a license.
For the past 3 days, I felt so nervous and stress. I couldn't even eat n sleep well. I didn't dare to tell anyone that I m going for the test... I'm scared that I will fail and by then people will start to question me can I really drive? I hate that kind of feelings.
I made things from impossible to possible. I can't do this by myself.. Is through God. While I m sitting for the test, lots of miracle happens. Not much car on the road.. The testers were so kind to me. The cars even slow down to let me over took them.
Today Is the day for me to remember always!!

Many of you must have wonder what happen to me lately? Why suddenly I seldom date you guys out for dinner or even for drink? Some of you said I might have mild depression and others said I've becoming antisocial... Well guys... I myself also don't know what's the matter with me...
I'm so stirred up... I can't imagine what's happening now is the truth... I can't tolerate anymore with the nonsense... Is so insane....
Everyone is telling me don't worry.. nothing wrong... Is alright ... But who can actually understand my feelings??? Who can ever bare with it.... Dad always go out for drink, and mum lead into depression...
I'm so worry... Not only for my mum.. But my dad... Knowing that he is drunk and need to drive home... Why? Why no one could ever understand how I feel? I just don't want to lose my family... I love them so much ... My cousins blaming me for siding my dad... My brother scolded me for not concerning about my parents...
My dad even left me alone in the church last Saturday... He told me he forgotten to Deliver The soya drinks for his customer and insist Mic to fetch him home. In the end, mic fetch both parents home and I left alone. But Later on he went to that coffee shop for drink knowing that I will be upset...
Now guys u know what's the reason I can't go out... I m afraid... If I m sooo drunk outside like before... I might do silly things...

P/S: 饺子，快点来救我啊。。快活不下去了。。。

First Time driving on the Road

Attended my car lesson for the second time.. after an hour training for the side parking, suddenly my trainer told me "are you prepare to drive on the road? " Wow.... Suddenly my heart beats so fast... automatically I answered him " huh? so fast? But I'm scared... " Mr Andy, my trainer laughed and told me not be to scared... So here we go.... First time driving on the road and the road is often heavily congested with traffic... Gosh.... I just silently pray to God for wisdom and protection... Guess what Mr. Andy told me that my face was so pale.... haha.... Luckily everything went smoothly....

Oh yea... when we were on our way to the driving centre, its started raining...I was so worried because it will affect my training... So I started to pray... Dear Lord, please let the rain to go away so that I can learn and drive safely... God really answered my prayers. The rain stop as soon as we reached the centre... Thank You Lord..... I Love you so muchhhh.....

The World is so ... sick......

Yesterday I read a shocking news from FB and newspaper...A 2 yrs old toddler from China , Fo Shan being run over by 2 separate vehicles and left to die by passers-by last week. One by one, no fewer than 12 passers-by just ignore the badly injured girl. None of them stops to help or rescue her...They clearly notice the child, as some motorists swerve to avoid her body. After three people walk past, a different truck runs over the young girl again.Imagine how cruel can it be???!!!! If one of the three people were to rescue her, she won't be hit again by the 2nd truck!!!!

Finally there's a 58 yrs old cleaner,  picked up her body and alerted her mother so that she could take the child to the hospital. She suffered serious brain damage and expected to die.  

Why did no one stop to help???? Where is their morality???? Won't they feel guilty, upset,and pain for ignoring the little child. She is just 2 yrs old...She is so innocence. China doesn't have a Good Samaritan law protecting those who stop to give aid, and some speculate that fear of being blamed or prosecuted for the girl's injury made so many pass without stopping???


P/S Poor child, she is now R.I.P... Doctors announced her death last night.... 

不孝子

After a hectic day at shop, decided to rest at home In the evening... But after received a call from my mum, my mood got stir up. Guess what, my uncle ...no.. I shouldn't call him my uncle... He is not worth to become my uncle...he Shud be called a jerk... He chased out my grandma out from his house...

Now you must have a thought that my grandma must have done some mistake and therefore he chased her out... No!!! This poor old lady can't even walk and yet need to wash their clothes everyday... For 15 yrs, she took care of their children and right now he told my grandma, his children grown up and they can take care of themselves.

I really can't sleep at all... I felt so upset for my grandma... When I called her, she didnt even complain a single word. She just told me that she need rest. I really wonder why there is such a jerk on the earth whom treated his mother so badly? Well I do believe this world is very fair... How he treats his mum, he will be treat the same...

I guess I can sleep now... Nitezzzzzz

Bangkok Trip

29/8 to 3/9/11


Last minute decided to get some stocks at Bangkok. Mic told me that he wants to experience new things so he said he want to drive up there... Everyone thought that we were crazy. From KL to BKK and back here took around 3000km. Is so impossible... But Mic told me is POSSIBLE... After reconsidering, I've decided not to worry so much, just pack my things and off we go...We even invited my mum to follow us.. Lately she was upset with my dad... Hopefully this trip will bring her some joy thou...

Monkey on the truck... Some said 2 securities looking after their coconuts. 

First stop, Hua Hin beach... 

 Can you imagine HOW beautiful this world is?? How great is Our God for him to create such beautiful world for us.... Thank you Lord!

 Sun rise... I couldn't wake up so early in the morning.. Mic manage to get a few nice photos for me... 

It was so happen that on the 31st Aug was our 12th Anniversary. Frankly, I was totally forggotten about it till Mic told me he was going to bring me for our Anniversary's dinner... The view from 45th Floor was so romantic... You can look at the nite view of Bkk from there... Thanks to my hubby for the dinner...

Looking at this photo,I can feel how sad my mum was... Although she was smiling, but inner her was so sad...

Been very busy lately... Travelling here and there... Things happen one after another.... Really tired and can't bare with it anymore. But before I continue with my stuff, I wanna blog about my dearest cousin, TYL. She is getting married today and yet I couldn't attend her "BIG day"... sighz... I'm so happy and excited for her. She is gonna start her new chapter of life. Right now, I just gonna wait for the 2 lovely couple to come back to K.L for the wedding dinner... Can't wait for the days to come....

15/7/2011

Is been ages since my last blog... Lately I've been very busy with my business... Well, my business is doing quite well. Just that my staff starts to give me loads of problems again. Sometimes I just wonder why I can't get along with my staff. Is it due to my problem or theirs?

Last few days, I heard a very shocking news from my friend, G ( i can't mention her name in here coz its very sensitive issue)... After I heard from her, I've realize that for the past few months we've been cheated from one of my friend, V.

All these while V always told us that her behalf is not a good man. Cheated on her, emotional abuse and so on... We tried many ways to help her... and pity her. Giving her loads of advice. Criticize on her husband and condemn him. But lately we have realize that she took all her husband's money... But anyhow we can judge people coz we dunno their internal situation....

饺子

“饺子的由来：

有一天，面皮有烦恼。面皮去找好朋友肉子帮忙。肉子拍拍自己的胸脯说包在我身上。于是就出现了饺子。。。”

这是我一位最好的朋友发信息送给我的。。。那一晚。我真的很不开心。我却在他的面前哭了。 算起来，这起我第二次在他的面前哭起来了。第一次，是因为Francis。而 这次是因为我的婚姻。。。我真的累了。我真的觉得想放弃了。我觉得我的人生这样就毁掉。。。很无奈。。。我再想到底我这样的生活要到几时还能结速呢？

饺子阿， 如果我真的是不开心时，你真的会陪我渡过吗？ 因为你就是我就好的朋友。。。相反的如果你不开心的话，我也是会陪你渡过的。。。

I'm flying off soon... but my heart seems something I can't let go... What will happen while I m in China？

Right now,Grandpa admitted... My cousin sister's wedding dinner. Everything seems come together... I feel so heartless... Don't know what I should do next???

Jang Geunseok - Without A Word, english subs

Without Words - He is Beautiful OST
hajimalgeol geuraesseo moreuncheok haebeorilgeol
anboineun geotcheoreom bolsueobneun geotcheoreom
neol a ye bojimal geol geuraetnabwa
domangchil geol geuraesseo moteureuncheok geureolgeol
deudji domotaneun cheokdeul eul su eobneun geotcheoreom a ye ne
sarang deudji anheul geol

maldoeobshi sarangeul alge hago
maldoeobshi sarangeul naegejugo
sumgeolhanajocha neol damge haenoko ireoke domanganikka
maldoeobshi sarangi nareulddeona
maldoeobshi sarangi nareul beoreo
museun mareul halji damun ibi honjaseo nollangeot gata
maldoeobshi waseo

wae ireoke apeunji wae jagguman apeunji
neol bolsu eobdaneungeo
nega eobdaneungeo malgo
modu yejingwa ddokateungeonde

maldoeobshi sarangeul alge hago
maldoeobshi sarangeul naegejugo
sumgyeol hanajocha neol damge haenuko ireoke domang anikka
maldoeobshi sarangi nareulddeona
maldongbeoshi sarangi nareulbeoryo
museunmareul halji damunibi honjaseo nolangeot gata
maldoeobshi nunmuri heulreonaeryeo maldoeobshi gaseumi muneojyeoga

maldo eobneun sarangeul gidarigo maldo eobneun sarangeul apahago
neokshi nagabeoryeo baboga dwibeoryeo haneulman bogo unigga
maldoeobshi ibyeori nareulchaja maldo eobshi ibyeori naegawaseo
junbido motago neoreul bunaeyahaneun naemami nullangeot gata
maldo eobshi waseo

maldoeobshi watdaga
maldoeobshi ddeonaneun
jinagan yeeolbyeongcheoreom
jamshi apeumyeon dwinabwa
jaggu hyungteoman namgedwaenikka

TRANSLATION:

I should have done that
I should have ignored it
like something i couldn't see
I shouldn't have looked at you at all
I should have run away
I hould have acted like i didn't hear it
like something I couldn't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
what should I say next?
my lips were surprised
it came without a word

Why does it hurts so much?
Why does it hurts continuously ?
Except for the fact that i can't see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it's the same as before.

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
What should I say next?
my lips were surprised
Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks down.

Without a word, i waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I zoned out. I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky
Without a word, firewell finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preperations
It came without a word.

Without a word, it comes and leaves
Like the fever before
Maybe all I need to do is endure the hurt for a while
Because in the end, only scars are left.

He is beautiful... Korean Drama

Lately I've been watching the Korean Drama " He is beautiful " . The whole movie was about The management company of the idol group A.N.JELL insisted on adding a new singer to the group as the lead vocal, Tae Kyung's voice was hurting. However,the new member, Mi Nam, had to go to the States to repair a botched eye job just before signing the contract. His agent came up with the idea of having his twin sister, Mi Nyu,to stand in for him and pretend that she was her brother. The two of them grew up in an orphanage and Mi Nyu, who was all set to become a nun, agreed to this charade as she didn't want to spoil her brother's chance of fame which would make it easier to look for their mother.
This movie really full of laughters and tears... Love the storyline sooo much... Is worth to watch... and the songs that they sung really nice... Although I don't understand what is the meaning but I feel so comfort... Those of you who love to watch Korean Drama is worth to watch...

P/S : JL, you should watch... strongly recommend... ^^

April 30th - The Lost Bladesman...

Around 8.30pm, I received a call from Ivan. He told me that he wanted to watch the movie The Lost Bladesman...He said he was after his work and was on his way back home... If I am ok with it, he will come to Klang after helping his friend to move some things to his new house... So 2 silly fellows went to the cinema, bought 2 tickets and waiting for the movie to start...

Nothing much to complain about the movie, just that I can't really bare to watch the blood splashing here and there. So Ivan just non stop telling me that its just a movie... Everything is fake one... nothing to be scared about.After the movie, we went back home, cook 4 packs of instant noodle, eat while chatting about his stupid company and some gossips... ^^

【HD】蔡健雅 Is it over

is it over now
do we really have to say goodbye
does it mean that we can't talk anymore
cos i still love you so
cos i didn't mean to break your heart
if only you knew why i had to let you go
is it over now
feels like it's the end of the world
i don't really wanna try to get over you
cos still see your face
feel your breath everywhere i go
don't think i'll ever find someone just like you
i thought we could last
be together forever
but we didn't last
we sure did put up a fight
now it hurts so bad
with you out of my life
is it really over now
guess it's over now
cos i'm sitting here all alone
someone is knocking but it won't be you at my door
letting go is never easy
i've been learning it the hard way
i've been counting every minute and second
since the day you left since the day you left

突然好喜欢这首歌。。。

也许是说出我心中的话吧。。。

is it over now???

do we really hv to say goodbye

does it mean tat we can't talk anymore

coz i still love you so...

朋友。。。

最近我都在想很多很多的事情。。。到底我的朋友了解我多少。。。最亲到最远的。。。他们有真真的了解我吗？当我跟他们说我的心事时，他们有真真地了解到我心里的悲伤或空虚吗？或者他们听了，过后会拿那些事情来伤害回我，令我更难过。也许吧。因为他们重来都没有体会过我的生活上的点点滴滴，他们怎样会了解我的心情呢。。。
但是有些事情发生了，永远都会改不了。。。有些话说了，永远都会变成我的伤害。。。我懂了。。。我了解了。。。 我会跟懂得保护我自己，不会再给任何一个人来伤害我。。。

好听就是男人，难听就是懒人。。。

男人啊，真的是很奇怪一样东西。。。为什么这个世界会有男人跟女人呢？？ 为什么男人跟女人一定是要有爱情呢？爱情是什么呢？不知不觉我都以不相信男人跟爱情了。 男人当他看上你的时候，什么都愿意做给你。就算你要天上的月亮他都可以送给你。但是，得到你时候，你什么也不是了。。。好的懒人至少负责任。。。怀的懒人会想多多的理由来抛弃你。。。就像我个朋友。我看见了她就可怜。都是应为懒人。。。！！！！起初对她很好。。。买早餐给她吃，载她放工，还有很多为她复出。我们以为他是好男人。我们错了。。他们在一起的两个礼拜就分了。一个人可以为她付出这么多，到后来几说他爱我的朋友65%。 爱真的可以衡量吗？
爱情啊。。。起初是很甜蜜的。。。但过后你会发现了一点都不甜蜜。。。这一分钟，你可以爱得死去活来。。。但下一分钟，也许你会恨他，巴不得他死掉。。。你们说爱情可怕吗？

SoulSearching ....

Lately I felt so lost... Felt so terrible... Don't know what happen to me... Always work from morning to night... Sleep a few hours and continue to work again.... Stressful at work... Lonely at home... Life is just so meaningless... So empty...

I thought that I can leave everything behind and carry on my life with work, but I am wrong... I'm still a lady who needs care too... Where should I seek it???

Pass My Undang Exam...

I've made it... I really made it... I've pass my undang exam. Finally I've the urge to sit for the exam... All these while, I've been busy with my new business... I've put my driving course aside... Sometimes I even thought of giving it up... But lately, I've been very emotional... I feel that I'm too depending on Mic. I need to learn to be independent. So that I can do everything by my own...

Yesterday afternoon I've decided to sit for the exam by today. I called the learning center and told them I want to sit for the exam the next day... Frankly, I never study my undang at all. Since I've decided to sit for the exam, so I studied the whole day yesterday. I'm so afraid that I will fail my exam. I don't even dare to post on FB that I'm going to sit for the exam. I've even warn Mic not to post anything on FB.

Got my result... 44/50... Happily taking my result and heading to the center. I met with my instructor and he told me that I need to get my P license by Sept. OMG!!!! I've only 5 months to go... I haven't got my car modify... What am I suppose to do now?

I thought that my both parents will be supportive. Unexpectedly, my dad started to war again... Due to my Mazda 3, we've been arguing and having cold war for a week more... Till I surrender my white flag and told him that I accept his offer for using my dad's honda for temporary... Right now, I really need it and yet he is not really happy. He is still disagree for me to take up my driving lesson... Sighz... I know my dad is worrying about me...Today suppose to be a happy day for me and yet I don't feel happy at all... :(

I'm tired of the sort of people that use you when they want or need something and then screw you over once they have gotten what they want or need!!! This is what I've posted on my FB this afternoon. Why I said so?

Out of sudden, I feel humans are so realistic. When they need help or need, they will come to you but once they got the things they will not bother about you. Middle of last year CK need to borrow a car from Mic at least for 2 to 3 months. Frankly, I really don't mind helping him. I always thought that he is one of Mic's best friend. So I agreed to lend him the car.

In that period of time, we often hang out together. Never had any doubts on his personality. Till he got his new car. I'm not sure whether am I being sensitive or not... But I'm starting to get pissed off on his character... He totally stop calling us for meals and also rejecting every events that we've plan... The worst part was he don't even bother to reply my sms... Well... well... Now I really got to see his true colours... Think back the past, he was actually treated us like this ever since few years back when he need to stay at our house. After he moved out from our house, he also MIA for years. I'm so disappointed with HIM!!!!

Conversation with Ivan 02/03/2011

Just finish the conversation with Ivan regarding our latest hot topic over the Potato. He advised me not be to so angry and pissed off. There's nothing I can do to help Vic... so just leave it...

Our next topic was about saving MONEY... He claims himself that he loves money a lot... So I? asked him why. He said he will feels insecure without money. Well, I'm very generous about money... I need to admit that I spend my money without thinking... He taught me how to save some money for future and spend money wisely. He said I should start saving and bank in an amount of money every month....

IVAN, Thanks for your advice yea.... You have gave me a wake up call.... I will start to save my money starting from today!!!! Arigato!!!!!

March 2nd 2011

Today is just the second day of March but I feel that its the middle of the year. Many things happen since Jan2011. Lately I'm really busy with my business and right now I'm busy arraging forwarder to deliver my stock from BKK and China. I'll be flying again soon... real soon together with Chelsea and Mic. Really don't dare to think what will happen over there. Chelsea still can't forgive Mic over the argument bout Bridget.

This morning Victor sent a sms to me and JL. His sms really shocked both of us. Well, I've never had the chance to blog about Victor and his roomate. To cut the story short, Victor found out "someone" withdrawing money from his account in the middle of night. He was very sure that he didn't withdraw the amount of money. When I knew about it, I blame him for misplacing his wallet and adviced him to place his wallet under his pillow.

So now what happen was Potato tried to take his wallet while Vic still Sleeping. WHAT THE xxxx !!!! Why there's such a personon earth? Really can't believe Potato is a theif!!!!... I,m really mad and angry with him. How can he steal friend's money? If he has no money to eat or need somey for emergency, we will willingly to lend him. But right now, he steal it and spend it in club or etc. (enjoying himself with people's money) Such a jerk....

I'm just wondering myself, did he ever steal my money too???

Buffet Dinner @ Palace of the Golden Horses...

Mum suddenly called me in the Sunday afternoon inviting me for dinner together with Uncle Lim and family. Due to Elaine rest day, I need to close my shop early and off we go to the Palace of the Golden Horses.

Once we reached there, Uncle Lim told us that there's not much choices for the food and ask us whether we should stay or leave to a Japanese Restaurant. To create less trouble, my dad decided to eat there. Although not many choices, but the food there was delicious. I miss their coffee very much.

Uncle LIm left early with his family and we stayed a little longer for our photograph session. They really enjoy themselves and so do I...

My loving family...

CNY Celebration with TN colleagues

Finally CNY has come to the end. I need to get back to reality. No more outing. No more gambling. No more relaxing. Everyone got back to their life. This year my CNY celebrations were fun and exciting. I manage to celebrate with my parents on CNY eve and 1st day of CNY. Its been very long time I didn't celebrate CNY eve there. I'm very happy.

This year TN ex colleague gathering was a little bit different than last year. Ivan stayed at my house for a night. He was too lazy to drive down to KLang in the morning, so he spent a night at my place. We chatted for the whole night telling him my grandmother story... about Chelsea, my staff and etc... We did gossip a little... Hmm... wanna know what we gossip? Of course can't tell you guys lar.... Later you guys will beat us... Haha...

Next morning we have to rush to GM to open my shop and had bra-lunch with Wai Chaw and gang. Feel weird why they came to Klang for Bak Kut Teh? Out of sudden Jeremy message me and told me that he and Ivan Cha coming to my house on Saturday night. But ended up, Jeremy got pissed off with Ivan because he waited Ivan for an hour at a petrol station. He cancelled of the appointment and went home with disappointment. So we have no choice but to arrange a bra-lunch on the next day to patch them up again... Sighz... now I'm agree with W.C. Both of them really "small gas" de.

Jl and Victor reached around 3 pm together with Jerry. This year we were addicted to rummy. We played for almost few hours and decided to cancel off our Dong Zhan Shi (Temple) to continue our rummy Session. Happy moments always pass very quickly. Out of sudden, I felt emptiness and loneliness. Just wonder when will be our next gathering and next meet up. Esp Ivan Ng. Is difficult for him to come to Klang when he starts working....

My honey ~~ Long time din camwhore with her edy...

Victor purposely showed me the word of Calvin Klein.

Guess who is the cameraman???

Bonyoge to P'ng

Time flies very quickly. Is time to say goodbye to my brother... He is going back to Miri to continue his studies. Frankly, when he was just back from there I really can't get used to it. I felt that my parents gave all their attention to him and neglected me.

I argued with my dad very often and cried a few times. I blamed my brother for everything eventhough I knew it was not his fault. He was the victim too. My dad was too attached and control him. He has no freedom at all. Due to this reason, I was so frustrated but I told myself that everything will be alright when he goes back to Miri.

Now the time has come but I don't feel happy or relieved. Instead I feel abit lonely. Usually if I was alone, I will called him out to accompany me. Right now I have to wait for 4 months for him to come back...

New business - Prince & Princess Kids Fashion Wholesale

I'm back... Finally... I'm back. I haven't been blog since Dec. I'm extremely busy since early Jan till now... there's so many things that I wanted to blog about, such as my New year eve celebration, my CNY celebration, and etc... But right now I want to blog about my new business... Yes... Is new My business...

Finally, I've decided to get back on my carrer. I think its time for me to get back to work. To start a business is not easy especially when you have a partner. Guess who is she? Chelsea. She was my partner for 1 week. Haha... I really don't know whose fault is it but I really can't tolerate anymore. I'm always afraid that one day we both will end up fighting in the shop.