Bonyoge to P'ng

Time flies very quickly. Is time to say goodbye to my brother... He is going back to Miri to continue his studies. Frankly, when he was just back from there I really can't get used to it. I felt that my parents gave all their attention to him and neglected me.

I argued with my dad very often and cried a few times. I blamed my brother for everything eventhough I knew it was not his fault. He was the victim too. My dad was too attached and control him. He has no freedom at all. Due to this reason, I was so frustrated but I told myself that everything will be alright when he goes back to Miri.

Now the time has come but I don't feel happy or relieved. Instead I feel abit lonely. Usually if I was alone, I will called him out to accompany me. Right now I have to wait for 4 months for him to come back...