After today what will I be? Really got a blur vision of myself. Don't know what is my future will be? Another 30 hours to go, then I need to go through the injections, dripping and the pain after surgery. Really need to cross finger everything will go smoothly and no infections on my wound.

What will happen to me after this? I'm really scared.... I don't know how to carry on living. I don't know whether my hand really can be heal after this surgery. I really don't like needles sticking on me... I don't like the pain....