Its my 2nd time organizing a steamboat party at my house on Mooncake festival... It's out of my expectation, most of my ex TN colleagues came.Is a moment to remember. I miss all of them... Ivan, Kang Wei, Doren, Jerry, Li Pei, Lawrence, Eric, Vivian and Victor. Miss our times that we spent together..
I'm very upset recently. I don't know somehow nothing could cheer me up. I feel that I've lost my inner self. Trying hard to search back... but still I failed. I don't know what am I suppose to do to carry on living. I'm stuck. I'm as thou a girl without soul and trying her best to search back her soul.
Yesterday, I felt the same... Sad, Disappointment, Miserable... Trying to occupied myself with the event. Preparing foods and etc. I thought that I will feel better at night with my friends around. But still, the feelings haven't subside... Still can't forget and accept what's happening. Trying to be the girl I used to be. Act to be happy, cheerful and naive. Anyhow, I can't deny that in the end I'm happy with their company. Ivan came all the way from KL. Its really out of my expectation cause he told me he is not coming... When I saw him entering my house, I really felt shock and surprise...
My night ended up with a nicely chat with Chee Kin. He came very late due to his work ended at 10pm. Since I left some food for him, he came for his late dinner... When everyone back to their home sweet home... again I m all alone ... and those bad feelings came back to me....
First time took photo with Orson although we knw each other for 15 yrs
Missing those days~
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