6th May - the beginning of my nightmare

When Prof Kamarul told me that my surgery will be fix on June 14th, my heart suddenly feels cold. Why am I going through all this over again? Why I have to suffer all this pain? I have not prepare myself yet. What should I do to avoid it? But if I avoid it, then my hand will be weaker day by day. I have no other choice but to suffer the pain again. Right now, the only thing that I need to do is to take good care of my health.I need to be healthy. I need to get heal before July 3rd.