Yesterday evening received a call from Ah Kwan. She told me that her daughter, zhi Yen skipped class since last week. She request me to transfer her to Klang so that she can study and stay here with me. Frankly, I'm not prepare to be a mum. Right now I have lots of freedom. Whatever I want to do or wherever I want to go, I can go. I don't need to worry about anything. Besides freedom, my financial is now just enough for me to spend. If she staying with us, I need to sacrifice everything... Am I responsible enough to take care of her? Am I selfish for not letting her to stay at my house? What will she going to be if she really continue to stay at Serendah without parents love? If she turn up to be bad, will I hate myself forever? Will I blame myself? can I face the consequences?

Just finish watching the movie "Ice Kacang Puppy Love". Is a very touching movie thou... while I watching this movie, my mind kept on thinking on Zhi Yen. Lee Sin Jie as Fighting Fish (打架鱼)became very rebellious towards her mother cause she hates her mum for leaving her dad. Same goes to Zhi Yen. Ah Kwan divorce with her husband, leaving them with her grandma. No parents love and family life for her. Not only her but for Zhi Xuan and Zhi Ying... I really feel pity on them. Out of sudden, I really wish my uncle is here... If he is still here, I don't think such thing will happen...

Grandma Bday on 16th April

Nothing much to blog about my grandma's birthday gathering. Just that I'm bit pissed off with Fatt Uncle and his family. They didn't attend the gathering just because no one invited them. He blame us for not personally invite them to attend. I just don;t understand why he wants to be so calculative. We are one family. Even if we didn't inform but they are staying with my grandma. Its a common sense for him to attend and not being so rude. Everyone came and enjoying themselves... except him and his family... I know that my grandma felt a little disappointed for their absence.

Mic bought his first DSLR camera on 15th april. The photos below were taken by his new camera... We took lots of photos on that night....

Candle Light dinner on 10th April

After busy the praying the ancestors for the whole day, finally both of us had sometime to spend on our own. With my mother in law around, I really can't have a peace of mind... She will talk n talk non stop and sometimes will control me... anyway, after sending them to my father in law... both of us went to Bt ferringhi for dinner... What I've request was I want to have Seaside dinner... But we couldn't find any nice restaurants so we decided to go "The Ship".

Finally I've the chance to go there... Micheal promise me years ago that he will bring me there for dinner... but everytime he goes back, he tends to forget his promise... So, we ordered 2 steaks and a bottle of red wine... Both of us enjoy the dinner... and I'm happy with it... We've took a few photos but due to camera missing... I can't post it. What a waste... Haih~~~

Anyway, our night end with a little of argument which makes me feel very down. Why everytime we need to argue due to his family... He told me if he were to choose family or me... He will rather choose family.... meaning he will divorce me... I will take note about it....

It's been a long time I've never went out alone with Alice. This afternoon, she suddenly call me and ask me out for lunch... Yes... Is Lunch... we went to Modesto, Centro. We shared laughters and tears together.... I can't write anything bout her in here.... but I just hope she will get all her happiness right now.

Just out of sudden, something pop into my mind. We are so lucky to live in this world... Everyday we live in this world is A BONUS to ourselves. Compare to those people who died in tsunami, earth quake and so on. They have no chance to live anymore. We really don't know what will happen tomorrow. appreciate our lives right now....

YM birthday on 16th april

Finally the day was ended happily, after all problems solved. Everything went smoothly. YM came back on time before the event. Everyone can make it to the birthday gathering. And I'm so glad that nothing went wrong.... It was a surprise for YM coz he didn't know everyone came to celebrate his birthday... I enjoyed my day too till I didn't realize that I've been taken those crazy photos with JL.... Although I didn't sing on that day, but with my buddies company and drinking session, I'm happy too...

Crazy photo...

Unwanted Deformed Infant

Recently read a news on an unwanted deformed infant was born at Taiping. He was born with a face so hideous that his parents gave him away. Why there's such parents in this world??? Although he was born deformed but still he was still their child. Why can't they just accept him? He has done nothing wrong... Is the fate for him to born such looks. Why can't they be strong and brave to accept him???

We must be grateful for ourselves... must be thankful that we born with such good looks... and last but not least must be thankful to our parents to accept who we are... They fed us and brought us up in a better living... and never abandoned us even we are evil and rebellious...

Early in the morning, woke up and busy preparing to work. Heard Mic screaming and shouting for my name... so I rushed out from the kitchen. He told me that the car's door open and camera was gone. My sunglasses also gone missing... All my photos were gone... Candlelight dinner's photos disappeared. Why is so unsafe to even park my car in my house car porch??? Why is the security here is so unsafe???? I really feel very insecure living here...

I wan to get a puppy to guard my house... but I know Micheal will not agree to have puppy at home. Even if he agree, his sister dislike dogs. Its difficult to get a puppy before she moves out... Sometimes I wonder myself.... this house belongs to who??? Me or her??? I've to consider about her feelings before making any decision... If I really done something that she doesn't like or disagree, she will start throwing tantrums to everyone.... I'm really sick of it....

Wei Li's wedding 20th and 21st March

Nothing much to blog about my cousin sister wedding. Just that feel so tired on Saturday because I just slept for 4 hours on friday night. need to wake up at 5 a.m to rush to her house before 7a.m. She told us that Chee Mun will arrive at 7.30 but end up he arrived at 8.30a.m. Late by 1 hour... If I know that he will be late then I will not wake up that early... After everything was done, we rush home and slept at 7p.m. I seldom sleep that early... unless I'm sick... Really lor... That day I was totally out of battery.... Not only me but Jacinta too... Totally out of battery.... on saturday....

Sunday night dinner was great.... everyone was very happy and drank a lot... I love their red wine.... Not so sour and bitter... the taste is kind of sweet...

Loving family....

My uncles and aunties... include my dad

KTV on 30th March

Mum invited us to go for Ktv on the 30th March to celebrate her friend's birthday. I told her that I will attend only in one condition. JL must attend. So, we agree and called JL to join us for the KTV session.

JL got attracted on him (My mum's friend) Due to some reason, I can't his name here for security purpose... We didn't even take any of his photos. Anyway back to JL. She got attracted by his voice. that's what I guess. When he started singing, JL told me "I like him...." and both of us laughing there crazily....

Talking bout both of us... when we get together we can always do crazy stuff... I just wonder anyone out there will do such things like both of us did...

终于三年后的今天我又回到了这里。又回到了我最不想去的地方。不是不想去拜你而是我不想面对事实。回到了这里真的让我想起了很多事情。我 真的好怀念你噢。。。为什么当初你不告而别离我们而去了。去了一个没有人能够见到你的地方。 难道你真的不知道我们很需要你吗？

三年了。。。你真的离开我们有三年了。。。这三年好多事情发生了。。。你知不知道你的女儿，儿子都离婚了？ 你知不知道你的孙都没有人要了。。。全都丢给你老婆。他们真的像流浪狗和猫。。。没有人管。。。为什么会变得这样呢？ 难道你是否知道会发生这种事情，所以你不要了我们？

我是你救回来的。没有了你和外婆，就没有了今天的我。所以我会永远把你放在我心里。

Suppose to go out with JL for dinner on Saturday night alone.But due to some reason, I really need someone whom really can accompany me for drinks. And suddenly, YM pop out into my mind. Yes... Finally someone willing to company me for drinks...

So we decided to go Palate Palatte, KL for dinner cum drinking. Invited few friends to join but ended up all of them can't make it... While we were nicely eating and chatting there, suddenly we heard some very loud bombing sound. Both JL and I were so panic. Thinking what sound was that. Is it world war 3 or end of the world.... My mind was thinking "OMG, i don't want to die now. I have still got lots of things haven't done yet... " Finally we found out that its fireworks. Both of us stood there for few minutes and watch it... its amazing....

Everytime when we go out with YM, we will ask him lots of question. We've even create a topic for him to talk and we found out that he will use few minutes to answer our question. Finally he told us that he seldom talks. He lives in his world... asking question by himself and he will answer himself. This is HIM.... LIVING IN HIS OWN WORLD... He won't feel lonely because he used to it. he don't need to ask question because he will ask himself and answer it by himself.... easy and simple.

Question for myself is "Is it good to live in our own world?" sometimes is good to live in our own world but not all the time. If we use to live in our own world, we will lack of communications with people and end up will have no more friends.

Our night ended up at Boston eating lala.... Waiting there for 1hour plus. and now I know what's the taste of the Boston Lala.... Thanks to JL...

或许天应该跟我在开玩笑。 为什么这样的命运会落在我这里。今天我去看医生了。医生告诉我，我一定要开刀。不开刀，受也许不能好起来。但是， 当我问他为何我的手会痛。他说不出原因。他只跟我说 “我也不知道。你开刀就可能会好吧。” 我听了他说的这句话，我的心好乱。如果开了手跟痛，那我该怎么办好啊。 后来我再问他，“谁会跟我开？你会帮开吗？” 医生回答我“我要回英国了。 不能跟你开。Dr. Ravi 会跟你开。”

天啊， 你真的有不必要跟我开那么大的玩笑吗？Dr Ravi 是我最不喜欢的医生。 他对我而言只不过一个普通的一位医生。他乱乱跟我打针。害到我不能吃也不能睡。到后来，我的手跟痛，才发现那支针其实不能打得。现在还要跟我开刀。我应该怎么办才好。真得不知道该怎么做。