幸福不是必然的._.`

10th Dec 2010 - RIP to Alviss KOng

Love kill... 10th Dec 2010, a young man committed suicide by jumping off the 14th floor of the Ketumbar Heights, Cheras after he failed to get her back. Before his suicide, he posted his farewell note on fb together with a photo that was taken by him shortly before he die...

I don't want to blog much about him at here... For the past few days I was thinking about him. about Love. What is love? Why there's someone out there will kill themselves for love? Is it worth? Then what about those people who struggling to live. Fighting for life? Life is precious. We can't end our life just like that... We have to think about our parents...

Lucky for me... For all these years, I never think of suicide at all no matter how sad I am. In fact, I have a bunch of good friends. They were there for me to overcome my depression. I've been through a lot for love... Of coz I won't mention it here because its already a past tense for me... and I don't wish to recall all those sad story...

To those people out there, if you ever think of suicide, please don't do it... You might think that Alviss is a hero. He sacrifice his life for love... But.... Love is not everything... You still have family members and friends... They care for you... They love you... Think positive... You might think is not worth living without him/her. But that's just a temporary thoughts. After a month or two, you might forget him/her. I read a post the other day. Its written there ... " When you have been rejected or dumped... it is because God thinks that you deserve someone better!" I truly agreed with the statement. If he/ she don't love you then get someone who really cherish you....

this photo was taken by him shortly before he die...

his farewell note....

Alviss countdown at Fb before he died... and his last words to his sister at Brunei...

My 27th Bday

2010 - 11 - 26 was a moment to remember. Why I said so? Because that day was full of surprises and laughters. In the afternoon, I went out with Fang Ting for lunch. We had an early lunch actually because I have to rush back for another meet up with Jerry. Jerry was on leave on that day. I don't know what's the actual reason that he took leave, but everytime I asked him why, he just told me that because it was my birthday... Well, I don't know whether I should trust him or not. The fact was he really did spent his whole afternoon and night with me... Should appreciate his accompany....

This year I didn't really organize my birthday gathering. Why? 2 reasons. First, I was not around before my birthday... I know them a lot. I know they are those last minute boys and girls. I can't plan well because I'm totally pack with my own things the day before my birthday. In fact, I was fully booked for the whole week. You want to know why and what I am so busy on? check my blog and you will know. Second reason was I'm lazy... and who will plan for their own birthday... So I passed the ball to Jerry and Victor...

I remembered last year birthday. I was so touched when they took the cake, presents and a bunch of flowers to me at the TN office. Ivan, as usual. He always fool me. Last year he fool me by telling me he was lost in no where. He don't know how to go to that restaurant. I was busy guiding him the road... sigh...after being fool around an hour, finally he just appeared in front of me. This year, he told me he was busy and can't attend. as usual, I feel disappointment and upset. He even slammed my phone when I called him on that day... after an hour, he called back. Just out of no where, he stood in front of me. Really surprise me a lot...

This year birthday present was fully DIY by Victor. Although 8 of them shared to buy the present, but Victor was the one who assemble everything by himself... JL did help him a little... He told me that he just slept few hours everyday till the thing was done. JL complained that he didn't spend time for her because of my present...

You guess what JL gave me for this year present. A huge bear. Can you imagine JL gave me bear? Talking about this bear, really pity Victor. Heard that he carried this bear from Sg Wang to Lot 10. From Lot 10 to Fahrenheit and from Fahrenheit to Pavilion. Definitely there will lots of girls envy on JL because they might thought that the huge cute bear is for her...

The night ended with balloons flew up when I open the car bonnet and there's a banner wishing me happy birthday...I'm really happy indeed. Although this year I didn't received flowers, but the gifts, balloons and the banner... was something special.... and I will treasure it...

When I was back home, Jerry sent me a sms. He hope that next year my birthday will celebrate at the outstation because he already no more ideas for surprises...

Search for new car

Today went to Selayang to search for my new car... Yes... My car... I'm going to learn driving and get my own car...

Under the hot sun, walking from booth to booth. Looking for cars. Micheal suggested to have a Vios for me. But due to some reason, I hope not to have it...

While we were looking at the Nissan march, I saw a BMW328, cost at RM30,500. Once I saw it, Ive already like it. Moreover I love it's ID. It's cool!! But too bad. The road tax is too expensive... Sigh!!!

Since I'm back from Taiwan, I've no free time not even for myself... Have been busy going for therapy, birthday celebration, wedding dinner at Penang, moving house, house warming dinner, and Malacca half day trip... Always intend to spend sometime for myself with myself and friends especially JL and Victor as a token of appreciation for the presents and surprises for my bday but till now I'm still busy with my in laws... sighzzz... I thought that after they moved out, I will be free... But.... I'm WRONG!!!!

We have to go over to their house for lunch and dinner. My mother in law will still control our activities... Sighzzz....

Talking about my HALF DAY trip to Malacca. I'm a bit pissed off. In the begining, I told Mic that don't count me in for the trip. Its totally ridiculous and tiring if to go there just to bet the ship. But Mic told me that he will spend some time for me at the Jonker Street. Besides, there's no chance for me to tell my in laws that I'm not interested on that trip.

You will never imagine that they really spend less than an hour at Jonker Street. We don't even have the chance to really see my things... Can you imagine how selfish they are? sighzzz.... I really don't want to blog about that trip... All I wan to say about it was tiring, boring and pissing me off...

My Activities For The Past 1 week

24th Back from Taiwan

25th Appointment with Prof Kamarul, Bday eve Dinner with Chelsea and Orson

26th Lunch with Fang Ting, then went out with Jerry and had dinner with TN ex coll

27th Accompany my dad to get the Honda Accord, to Uncle Lim hse and had dinner with my parents

28th and 29th Penang trip for cousin wedding

30th Hand Therapy then to New House

1st Dec In Law Moving House, House warming

2nd Therapy, a call from Mic's aunty. Hp lost need to search at Jusco.

3rd Malacca Trip...

Finally today I can really have time for myself at here to blog and watch drama series....