Yesterday evening received a call from Ah Kwan. She told me that her daughter, zhi Yen skipped class since last week. She request me to transfer her to Klang so that she can study and stay here with me. Frankly, I'm not prepare to be a mum. Right now I have lots of freedom. Whatever I want to do or wherever I want to go, I can go. I don't need to worry about anything. Besides freedom, my financial is now just enough for me to spend. If she staying with us, I need to sacrifice everything... Am I responsible enough to take care of her? Am I selfish for not letting her to stay at my house? What will she going to be if she really continue to stay at Serendah without parents love? If she turn up to be bad, will I hate myself forever? Will I blame myself? can I face the consequences?

Just finish watching the movie "Ice Kacang Puppy Love". Is a very touching movie thou... while I watching this movie, my mind kept on thinking on Zhi Yen. Lee Sin Jie as Fighting Fish (打架鱼)became very rebellious towards her mother cause she hates her mum for leaving her dad. Same goes to Zhi Yen. Ah Kwan divorce with her husband, leaving them with her grandma. No parents love and family life for her. Not only her but for Zhi Xuan and Zhi Ying... I really feel pity on them. Out of sudden, I really wish my uncle is here... If he is still here, I don't think such thing will happen...

Grandma Bday on 16th April

Nothing much to blog about my grandma's birthday gathering. Just that I'm bit pissed off with Fatt Uncle and his family. They didn't attend the gathering just because no one invited them. He blame us for not personally invite them to attend. I just don;t understand why he wants to be so calculative. We are one family. Even if we didn't inform but they are staying with my grandma. Its a common sense for him to attend and not being so rude. Everyone came and enjoying themselves... except him and his family... I know that my grandma felt a little disappointed for their absence.

Mic bought his first DSLR camera on 15th april. The photos below were taken by his new camera... We took lots of photos on that night....

Candle Light dinner on 10th April

After busy the praying the ancestors for the whole day, finally both of us had sometime to spend on our own. With my mother in law around, I really can't have a peace of mind... She will talk n talk non stop and sometimes will control me... anyway, after sending them to my father in law... both of us went to Bt ferringhi for dinner... What I've request was I want to have Seaside dinner... But we couldn't find any nice restaurants so we decided to go "The Ship".

Finally I've the chance to go there... Micheal promise me years ago that he will bring me there for dinner... but everytime he goes back, he tends to forget his promise... So, we ordered 2 steaks and a bottle of red wine... Both of us enjoy the dinner... and I'm happy with it... We've took a few photos but due to camera missing... I can't post it. What a waste... Haih~~~

Anyway, our night end with a little of argument which makes me feel very down. Why everytime we need to argue due to his family... He told me if he were to choose family or me... He will rather choose family.... meaning he will divorce me... I will take note about it....

It's been a long time I've never went out alone with Alice. This afternoon, she suddenly call me and ask me out for lunch... Yes... Is Lunch... we went to Modesto, Centro. We shared laughters and tears together.... I can't write anything bout her in here.... but I just hope she will get all her happiness right now.

Just out of sudden, something pop into my mind. We are so lucky to live in this world... Everyday we live in this world is A BONUS to ourselves. Compare to those people who died in tsunami, earth quake and so on. They have no chance to live anymore. We really don't know what will happen tomorrow. appreciate our lives right now....

YM birthday on 16th april

Finally the day was ended happily, after all problems solved. Everything went smoothly. YM came back on time before the event. Everyone can make it to the birthday gathering. And I'm so glad that nothing went wrong.... It was a surprise for YM coz he didn't know everyone came to celebrate his birthday... I enjoyed my day too till I didn't realize that I've been taken those crazy photos with JL.... Although I didn't sing on that day, but with my buddies company and drinking session, I'm happy too...

Crazy photo...

Unwanted Deformed Infant

Recently read a news on an unwanted deformed infant was born at Taiping. He was born with a face so hideous that his parents gave him away. Why there's such parents in this world??? Although he was born deformed but still he was still their child. Why can't they just accept him? He has done nothing wrong... Is the fate for him to born such looks. Why can't they be strong and brave to accept him???

We must be grateful for ourselves... must be thankful that we born with such good looks... and last but not least must be thankful to our parents to accept who we are... They fed us and brought us up in a better living... and never abandoned us even we are evil and rebellious...

Early in the morning, woke up and busy preparing to work. Heard Mic screaming and shouting for my name... so I rushed out from the kitchen. He told me that the car's door open and camera was gone. My sunglasses also gone missing... All my photos were gone... Candlelight dinner's photos disappeared. Why is so unsafe to even park my car in my house car porch??? Why is the security here is so unsafe???? I really feel very insecure living here...

I wan to get a puppy to guard my house... but I know Micheal will not agree to have puppy at home. Even if he agree, his sister dislike dogs. Its difficult to get a puppy before she moves out... Sometimes I wonder myself.... this house belongs to who??? Me or her??? I've to consider about her feelings before making any decision... If I really done something that she doesn't like or disagree, she will start throwing tantrums to everyone.... I'm really sick of it....